I went to bed on Election night before the official announcement was made. I knew before I went to sleep that night that the next day our lives would never be the same. That’s a pretty somber thing to think about that late in the evening, well, anytime really. I had this bad feeling in the pit of my stomach. Even though Hilary Clinton still had a narrow road to victory, the light at the end of the road was looking pretty dim.
I woke up this morning and it was a cold and gloomy day. The first real cold of the season made it feel even more surreal. Something didn’t feel right. Before I opened up my iPhone to see the results of the election, I braced myself. I took a deep breath in and let it out as I clicked to unlock it.
First thing that popped up in my notifications, “BREAKING NEWS: Donald J. Trump wins the Presidency.” Remember that bad feeling in the pit of my stomach? My whole body now felt like that. I felt it spread to my legs at first, then my chest. I finally felt it making my head numb, for the first time in a very long time I had nothing to say. I was in such shock and disbelief that no thoughts were even coming to my head, I was completely blank.
“How could this happen? Was I dreaming? THIS CAN’T BE REAL!”
Those were my first thoughts, I’m sure I wasn’t the only one who thought the same thing after the initial WTF moment. Have you ever had one of those out of body experiences? This was as close as I have ever been to one.
You see, I don’t like nor respect Donald Trump. For the last year and a half he has paraded around the country running a campaign based on hate. He has put a direct fear into every brown person currently in the United States. At first I didn’t take this guy too serious, I mean, I didn’t think people were stupid enough to really vote the Executive Producer of The Apprentice into The Oval Office. I trusted my fellow Americans to realize that the fate of our country was not a popularity contest like American Idol. So, through his first few months I kind of left him alone and didn’t really pay any attention to him or his policies. One, there was and still is no policy plans, and two, once again I believed in my fellow Americans to not be a bunch of morons.
I focused on the Democratic Party and what Bernie Sanders had started. When I would check on the GOP I would do my research on Marc Rubio and Ted Cruz. I figured one of those two guys would eventually go and be the GOP nominee, but boy we were wrong. BTW, Marc Rubio is a solid candidate for the Republicans for years to come. If it was him pitted against Clinton in this election, I’d consider voting Red for the first time in my life. I don’t vote according to a party, I vote according to how I feel about the candidate and their plans for the future of the United States of America.
It wasn’t until after Trump accepted the GOP nominee that I began to hear from people that he was the only candidate who lives by the bible. This is where I had that first uh-oh moment. I was like, “The bible? Are we talking about Donald Trump? The guy with five kids with three different wives? The man who committed adultery? That guy?” If you had to paint a picture of the complete opposite of a man who lives by the bible Trump would be that guy. I mean, did I miss passage Trump 3:16 “Thau shall grab her by the pussy” Let me see what bible you’re reading because we may have a different book.
The fact that I now have to explain to my two younger sisters how this misogynistic, homophobic, bigot, racist and down right disgusting human being of a man became the president absolutely terrifies me. It takes a lot to put a sense of fear into me, not too many things genuinely frighten me. My whole life I’ve had to fight so I like taking challenges head on, but undoing what Trump will inevitably cause may be too much. He wants to Make America White Again and his voters felt that. He has sparked a wave of hate not seen since the Civil Rights Area, somewhere I think he wants to take this country back to.
Not only is this the most under qualified man to ever run, let alone be elected President, he is the most dangerous. He’s a loose cannon, he has a temper and throws tantrums when he feels cornered or attacked. Can you imagine him with nuclear codes? It is absolutely terrifying.
With all that being said we have to watch out for each other. This will make people feel bold and act reckless, it has already started happening. Now we get to sit here and watch the slow destruction of a nation that only 8 years ago voted in it’s first African-American President. A nation that was headed in the right direction will now do a complete 180 and begin to back track us quicker than we got here. When all that happens people who voted for this man have to look their children in their eyes and tell them that yes, they were someone who supported this man who had no idea what he was doing from Day One. When that day comes America I only have one question, was it worth it?